Some normality

Did the school run this morning.

We had a bit of fun this morning with my head scarf and I let him create a look.  Children are so funny.  As you can image I ended up looking like a pirate which he thought looked fab but we both laughed together as he created a cool image for Mummy. It was amazing when I knelt down on my knees on his level and watch the excitement in his eyes.  I don't think I do that enough get down and make proper eye contact!

Luke bounced out the house holding my hand and hugged me when I told him he was I was taking him to school. God, I felt so conscious with my head scarf around my head.  I think even Luke could feel it.  He went very shy walking in the gates and did the hiding behind my leg thing that they all do.  Once the gates were open he was gone.  Part of me felt it was to get away from Mummy.  Seeing all the Mummies is so good.  They all make me smile and laugh.  I have missed you all and our fleeting chats as bags are handed over and things forgotten. This morning is was chat of drunken weekends and hangovers.   Slightly jealous but I am sure I will make up for all the partying I have missed when I get back on form.

Evanda (she has the pleasure of being married to one of my brothers) is here and filled the house with energy.  The kitchen has been cleaned literally from top to bottom and I don't think a corner will be left un-touch.  Lets just hope she stays away from the underwear draw!  She is amazing though and is determined to leave making me feel better about myself.  While chatting last night E mentioned taking some family portraits (she is a professional photographer) of the boys and I.  I looked at her with absolute shock.  I can't possible have a photo taken of me, not looking like I do!  This morning while finding scarves to wear I was so focused on hiding my head that E made a very valid point that I shouldn't hide, I should accessorize and use to add colour.  I will try but still feel like an egg head and not very feminine at all.  I know it is only for a short period and everyone tells me that I look good but in my mind I struggle so much with it.

I managed a short walk with Bongo this morning.  Walk is a loose term as not very quick at all.  More of a stroll.  Look forward to being able to stomp again.  All activities have worn me out but at least today is the last day of injections so my body will start feeling better and hopefully the tiredness will go a bit too.