I sometimes feel that my life is so complicated, I want it to be simple, but it never seems to happen.
Not sure whether I mentioned this in the last blog, but the doctors have decided to operate and look into the cyst they have found on my ovaries. So many different feelings. One trying to control my fear, pure fear and just keeping positive. I find myself holding back the tears 90% of the time. Just a waiting game now, waiting for a week for my appointment to come through. I hoped it would be before Christmas, but not sure that is going to happen now. I hate the waiting, just hate it. Everyone tells me to stay positive which I am, but boy it is hard work. My biggest fears are there and controlling them is just awful.
I went away for the weekend and forgot my tablets, you really don't realise how much you mind puts on them. I just couldn't go the weekend without taking them. It really played on my mind and I kept telling myself that, don't be silly it won't come back overnight, but no matter how much you convince yourself it is there.
I have eczema on my eye, which I am sure it is because of stress and nothing seems to be making it go.
