I always end up saying the same thing when I write these blogs. It is normally I have been meaning to write this for ages.
I have had an interesting few weeks. Work is going well but very stressful, which I do find hard to manage. I decided today that I am not exercising enough and that I need to take more time out to make my self more productive. Sharpening the saw and all that. Tiredness seems to have go worse but I don't feel sick anymore. The doctors have just changed the time of day that I take my tablets to the night time so I sleep through the side effects. It seems to have worked which is such a relief as that feeling of feeling sick all day isn't great. Brings back those memories of being pregnant.
I haven't been looking after myself very well at the moment, work has taken over and GP is taking a little too much of my time. I have a huge divide of in my mind that I should be working. I know that will pay off in the end. Its funny I had my hair cut the other day and I was chatting to Zoe and we couldn't believe that nearly exactly a year ago I had my first hair cut. My hair is staring to come back to normal, even the texture is starting to feel soft instead of wiry and slightly course. The curls are still there but only at the tips, it is such a pain to have to straighten my hair every time I was it otherwise my hair really does resemble a bush.
I have done some amazing things this month, even though very tough. A few weeks ago I had to stand up in front of 20 corporates and talk about my experience with Cancer, and why Cancer Research is so important. I broke down with in 2 mins of talking, it is the first time I have actually spoken about it in front of a crowd, I have written lots but not spoken. Mark was with me and he made it worse as he welled up so I couldn't look at him. Well, it gave the impact that Cancer Research wanted and helped with their mission of the business to think about how they can raise any money. It was a tough evening for me and I found it so hard and beat myself up afterwards as I really didn't want to cry and be that stereo type.
For the last couple of months I have been getting pain in my lower abdominal, had that checked out and they found a cyst 1.7cm on my ovaries. The first thought I had was shit, what if it is cancerous. You can't help it. The doctor did say it was a smooth cyst which is good. I did remind her, that she made exactly the same comment about the cyst in my breast. Any way it is being check, I am not overly concerned even if my thoughts sometimes go into panic mode, I am getting better at controlling them.
I have started getting eczema, it first started by my month, which I have managed to keep under control, but a bit has come up around my eye, which seems to be a little more difficult to shift. I have never had skin problems, I do think this is down to stress. Roll on Christmas!!!
Even after a year I still bruise so easily. I did my first 10km mud run for the first time in 18 months. I loved it so much and want to do more. I remember why I loved it so much.
And finally my awards. I can honestly say I am completely shocked that I won these. Really cannot believe, my first award on my merit, not on public votes completely on GP and what we stand for.
