First time in ages

A little delayed in publishing this, should have done it on Monday.

Isn't it funny how we take things for granted.

I was having a good tidy up at the weekend and for the first time in a long time I opened my 'hair' drawer.  I honestly cannot remember the last time I used a hair brush, it seems such a long time ago.  It is the first time I have even thought about hair brushes.  I used shampoo this morning for the first time too!  I really didn't need to, I only have about 1 cm of growth, but it felt good to just rub in and wash out.

Last night I sat in the sitting room and watch television on my own which I haven't done for months and months.  It has become a habit to go to bed at the same time as Zach.  I didn't feel exhausted but felt normal what ever normal is these days.  The little things that most people do every day without even thinking about it, we all just take as normal, but it is quite mad when those things are taken away from you and then returned.  These things are so basic but felt quite strange for me.  It appears that I have got out of the habit of grooming myself that now I have to make a conscious effort to do it.  Maybe I should go hippy and not bother!!!!

I had a good weekend this weekend with no tears, no negative thoughts, all very good.  Met with friends, gardened for hours and even baked again, gosh, I haven't done that in ages either.  Flapjacks, banana muffins and carrot cake.

Even though radiotherapy starts this week feeling good about it.  A little apprehensive as like chemo you don't know how your body is going to react.  Some fly through it and others get sore and tired. I am hoping that it won't be too difficult and I will be able to carry on with life as normal.