Well, I am 2 down on my radiotherapy, only 21 one more to go. Seems like loads but I am sure it will fly by. I have to travel to Guildford every day until 10th October, oh, I get the weekends off.
Yesterday was the first one, You have in your mind what will happen and how it will be. You have a huge machine that sits over you, but the radio waves come from the sides rather than from above which is the way I thought it would be delivered. Very quick and only in for 12 minutes. No time at all. Seems like a lot of fuss, but something I have to do. Slightly stressed out today as there was an accident on the way which meant I was very late. As soon as I go there I was taken in. It is really funny that now it seems almost normal to strip off on top and just stand there, makes me laugh. I have no problem with the nurses pulling me around, don't think twice about it. 6 months ago I would have swarmed and blushed. All these women lined up, half bald, half not just waiting to get zapped. Could make a great comedy sketch!! Some are almost scared to look at you and other willing to talk. These experiences should bring you together rather than make you look at the floor. I have hair now so I go in with my head held high and in my normal fashion talk to anyone that is willing to listen. I may never meet these people again, but we are all here for the same reason, to get cured. I do wonder how many will survive and how many will die within 10 years. I was talking with a friend who I have met through this and she made a comment which really hits home everything. She said "I really hope I reach 50". It's then you go, shit, it's pretty crap. I am on drugs to stop it coming back and hope that in 10 years there will be a cure. We both had a giggle and compared scares, which has become my new party trick :).
Booked a holiday today. Will give me something to look forward too. The boys are so excited all ready. Zach's fishing gear is now in his bedroom and he has already decided what he is taking. Very funny as it is another 8 weeks before we go. Even booking a holiday is different now, many insurance companies will not touch you with a barge pole when booking holiday insurance. I never really bothered before and had my European card and that's it, but just feel I should. I won't be allowed in the sun and if I do I have to cover up my chest as it will be still sore from Radiotherapy.
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