Felt pretty emotional over the last few days.  I didn't stop crying yesterday.  Not sure why, maybe anticipation for tomorrow or just having time to think.  Had blood tests which always brings it home that I am on this journey. Got home to an empty house as Charlotte wasn't well and she decided to take the boys to their Dads so I don't get the bug.  Home alone, didn't really know what to do with myself and there was a big void in my house.  Even though the boys fight continuously I miss them so much when they are not here.  They keep me going even though it is exhausting.  They won't be home until Monday which just seems ages away.

I thought that I would feel as good as last week and get a couple of runs in but just feel tired.  Maybe it is because I can now switch off as the boys are not here.  In a funny way I needed the space just to sit and cry and reflect over things.

Met a fellow cancer patient yesterday. She is on her 3rd chemo and doing FEC the same as me.  It was good to compare side effects and feeling.  I learnt Chemo Head yesterday.  I thought I was losing it but your brain goes all mushy.  I bit like being pregnant, the moment when you are trying to get a word out and it just doesn't happen.

Another hospital appointment today with my Oncologist, I will cry again this afternoon.  This week has been such an emotional rollercoaster.

One thing this whole experience is doing is making me appreciate.